Self Acceptance

Will a more beneficial outcome for the greater good result from only thinking of everyone else before acting or only thinking of one’s self? — to align with the assumptions of what others want or to align with the desires of the self?

What role does imperfection play in confidence?

“Being courageous enough to be imperfect — To be vulnerable demands a tremendous amount of courage.” - Donia.

It is easy to accept the self when the self is surrendered to a bigger purpose.

“Let your wildness be anchored in purpose.” - Donia.

Step 1: Define the purpose. What and who are you contributing to through what means?

My purpose is Freedom.

To free others of suffering. Free others of time. Free others of finance.

I am a leader also going through the process of freeing myself of suffering, time and finance. Teaching along the journey and setting the example. The example that I wish to show is self-acceptance of contradiction and multiplicity and imperfection. One must be able to hold and express all parts of themselves to truly be free. Those who are not ready or do not wish to accept these parts of me or simply don’t resonate with it are not of bother. If my purpose is to deliver water to the thirsty, which do I prefer? The thirsty person who accepts my water with gratitude and pleasure but judges my appearance? Or the thirsty person who compliments my appearance but rejects my water as unfit to drink? To be aligned with purpose and not of self flattery or external validation, I should prefer the acceptance of the water, not the acceptance of my appearance. I am the only one who must live in my body and wear my face. God gifted me with this body, vision and talents for a purpose. To be distracted or to switch up my behavior or heaven forbid quit completely because of the words of another human would be to disrespect the gifts of God. I must be an example of self-acceptance in alignment with higher purpose.

I must help others. I cannot help others while being repressed by judgement of myself.

I must accept my multiplicity, duality, and contradiction.

I am sophisticated, spiritual and edgy.

I like talking to God then talking to AI and wearing all black drip.

I like listening to Erykah Badu and reading Descartes while Donia walks around the house naked.

But which direction should my first video go after this breakout story?

Do I return with what is expected? An AI tutorial video?

Do I keep taking it in a new direction to ruffle feathers? Hot edgy video of Donia and I walking down San Francisco wearing all black and painting and speaking about “AI IS NOT GOD!”

or do I return with what is expected with a slight edge of what is not expected?

Like an AI commentary while sitting in meditation but with a slight edgy element. like weird AI transformations happening around me. Or i’m wearing all black drip. or Like a hand in first person sneaks around the corner towards me with a water gun but I don’t see then cuts to me in high definition talking about AI and then when I’m done I get squirted in the face.

lol idk but I really value staying grounded to my roots. Humble, humility, in service, creative, free, and actually caring about the process and the person watching it. Delivered in a consistent format that can be spread virally and make deep impact. Just not at the expense of my self-acceptance and freedom.